The Untold

Wake me up   You asked me to believe in you, I did You asked me to trust you, I did You told me that you cared about me And that you loved me I believed I believed you when you said you were not going to leave my side That you will stay with me no matter what gets in the way When you asked me to give you a piece of my heart, I gave you my whole You gave me life and took it all away I saw my life stumble right at my feet When you shot me right through my heart with a shotgun Breaking my heart in a thousand pieces And stepping on my broken pieces as you walked away With nothing left to pick myself up I should have known you lied I should have known you were a lie I should have known you looked at me and lied through my eyes I should have known you were playing games with me I wish I had known all that I know now Snap me out of it, I'm dreaming someone wake me up Tell me it will be all right, That I had a bad day and it's just a bad dream. Wake me

A Thousand Pieces                                             ********** ********* Things got serious between Susan and Samuel, even so that they got each other to introduce themselves to their parents. Susan studied hard and managed to improve her third year marks and she did well in her final year. On graduation day, her parents and Samuel escorted her to the hall and the most unexpected thing happened while they were taking pictures, Samuel went on one knee. At first she thought it was just a funny pose until he started saying sweet things like how he's grateful to have met her and later asked for her hand in marriage. It was a magical moment, she was overwhelmed by the joy and the only thing she could do was shed tears of happiness. She couldn't say the words out loud so she stretched out her hand instead. Her stretching out her hand was a way of accepting the proposal without saying the words. They needed a pilot on their wedding day and no one knows however it h

A Thousand Pieces Alex left me with so many unanswered questions and confusions. He asked me to make a promise before he left, a promise that I didn't honour and I was starting to blame myself for not keeping my promise. He worked on being a better version of himself to best suit me and all I ever did after he left was destroy his memory. He was my imperfectly perfect creature made specially for me. Although he left me broken when he left, all he gave me before that was love and happiness. Maybe I can still be that happy girl I once used to be.                          ********** Since it was still my birthday weekend, Samuel suggested that I join him and Tulinawa for a Sunday service. It will be good to start an additional year with blessings and I neededto give thanks too, he said. Samuel isn't just a cute face, he's a God-fearing man too and well-mannered. He is a kind of person any mother would like to have as a son or son-in-law. Having spent the day with Samuel

A thousand pieces I felt the urge to run into his arms but I remembered that he is the same person that left me broken and never looked back. I stayed in bed and he came inside, he had a hamper full of everything he knew I liked. He asked if he wasn't going to get a hug, I looked at his face and the chest that has been my pillow for a while and I just couldn't resist, he is my first love after all. I ran into his arms and he didn't want to let me go, I don't know how it happened but I started shedding tears, I fought him to let me go but he wouldn't Alex: I know you are hurt and broken because of the way I left you but it was for the good of the both of us, I'm sorry. I know that I should have called but it would have just complicated things more. I'm sorry Suzzie, would you please stop crying now? I have wronged you and I apologise for that. After minutes of sobbing, he let me lay down and I took a nap. He was still there when I woke up and I just

A thousand pieces                                        ********************** When it was time for him to leave, he asked for a hug, he held me so close that I could hear his heart beat. I found myself closing my eyes and before I knew it, we were exchanging breaths, there's a voice inside of me telling me to pull away or push him away but my body didn't have the strength to let go. Seconds later, his lips were locked in mine, it didn't last for a minute but I felt it, the whole of me felt the magical touch of his soft gentle lips and it felt good. It was  dark and quiet, it was just us, the whole has disappeared and there only sound we could hear was the sound of our breaths.                                                           ******** Maintaining my lie got easier ever since that day, I no longer felt bad for what I was doing because somehow a part of me felt something for him and things have been going well that sometimes I forget that it was just supposed

A thousand pieces When I started this thing with Samuel I thought it was the best thing that happened to me in a while, I was so focused on getting over Alex that I didn't think of what will happen in the near future, I didn't consider Samuel's feelings or what this might do do him, i didn't think of all the possibilities, but the guilt is starting to catch up with me now. Seeing Samuel and noticing that he's actually a good person made me want to go back in time and change what I did. Hilma was right, I should just distance myself from him and if he can read the signs, he would know that it was never meant to be serious. For the next two weeks since he came to see me, I didn't call or text him but he made sure that he texted or called everyday and I ignored him most of the times with an excuse that I'm busy with school. I guess he took the bate because he always apologised for disturbing. He called the Friday of the second week that he's free and

A thousand pieces Samuel called again and I don't even have a lie or excuse to tell him but I didn't want him to think that I'm ignoring him now that we are in the same place so I had to pick up this time. Samuel: (After greetings) I know you are mad at me for not talking to you yesterday, I had a very busy day and I don't want to make that as an excuse but I'm really sorry, please forgive me Me: It's okay, I spend the whole day with Hilma and you saw how she doesn't give people a chance to talk, let alone touching a phone to talk to other people We laughed about it and he asked if he could come over later but I told him that it wasn't a good idea since its not even my place. And now I was avoiding him considering that I now know where I stand with Alex.                         ********** I was here thinking that he was mad at me and to think that I almost said things I shouldn't be saying, I'm so glad he went first. Hilma walked in jus

A thousand pieces I was woken up the following day by the smell of bacon which Hilma was making for breakfast. I made up the bed, washed my face and joined her in the kitchen. She was trying so hard to avoid last night's conversation by telling many jokes, I couldn't stop laughing but she didn't have to try because she had no idea how I felt. I never believed that crying is so relieving until this morning, I didn't believe Hilma last night when she said that it will be fine when wake up. I guess it takes experience to believe something. I feel like I had been carrying a heavy object which was lifted from my shoulders and my heart. The little droplets of water that escaped my eyes healed me, my tears fixed me. My life unfolded like spring always find a way to turn even the coldest winter  into a field of green and flowers and a new life. Everything was unclear until this moment, I held on to the past that I forgot about the present, I forgot that I still have a

A thousand pieces I asked her if she wanted the complete truth or just the truth Hilma : Why don't we go with the whole truth and please start from the beginning Me: I don't want you to judge me or think that I have gone insane Hilma: You know that I will never judge you, I will just tell you my honest point of view. Me: Well, if you insist I know I won't be able to take back my words if I open my mouth and tell her the whole truth but I also know that she won't forgive me if I don't tell her everything, just for her to find out at a later stage. I would hate myself if I ruin my relationship with the big sister that I never had over a guy. I decided to tell her everything and I mean everything, how I met Samuel and what happened for us to be together. It was even easier to explain everything to her since she already knew about Alex, so I told her my intentions with Samuel. At some point when I was pouring out my heart, I found myself missing Alex all o