The Untold

(By Saara Kanana)  I was so used to being the one you loved, The one you cared deeply for and, The one you were so proud of.  I was used to what we had, Our happy forever. I often ask myself whether I was drowning you, With my expectations of you and, Somewhere along the process you got tired, And somehow freed yourself.   I failed to accept the change,  And so it left me heartbroken, Because I don't have my bestfriend anymore,  A lover only. You were imperfect but so perfect for me,  Now I don't even know where to look when talking to you, Because it is like you built this thick wall between us, And I don't have a chance in.  I was so deeply invested that I  didn't see the pages turning, I didn't smell the candle's burning out, I didn't hear your footsteps walking away,  Because what I saw next was your footprints in the sand. I guess this is where our journey ends. The end 

Written: Saara Kanana My scar Left behind by the pain I endured, Reminding me of the day events that had happened, Every time I look at it, As if the pain alone was not enough, Only that it pains no more. Although the wound healed, And all pain ceased, The scar remains, How could I let slip of the cause? Only that it hurts no more. I didn’t think I could get over it, I felt the pain when I did, And I just wanted it all to end, Now I smile when I look at it, Because I know I survived, As farther in the past the pain is, With time it became part of me, A reminder of what it took to get here, It is the price I had to pay, I can only be proud for I overcame.

I know What I felt previously, I thought that was love, I thought that was enough, And I thought I deserved the good, As much as the bad I got.   It was what I felt at the moment, And it felt all right that time, Looking back to those days, I hate to admit I was wrong, It was only what I wanted it to be.   Because here I am today, Trying to put it on paper, To explain how I feel now, A feeling that consumes my heart, But I am failing to start.   I am failing to speak my heart out, Because this feeling is unexplainable, It is beyond any word on my mind, Farther than the smile on my face, Because I know that this is love!

I dream Distance says you are miles away, Minutes away from where I am, Faraway from the place I am at, I don’t know how possible it is, To be in two places at the same time, It sounds like a lie I don’t believe. Because every night when I lay down, And close my eyes to sleep, It is you that I see besides me, And although the lights are off, And the room so dark, Your smile being so bright, It lightens up the place.  When you laugh, right in my ears, The echo brings it back to me, And I feel it over again, Starting from the bottom of my heart, Until a shy smile escapes my lips. We travel to different places, Every place so unique, All of them so appealing, With the stars shining light, So our footprints are visible, When we look back to that day, Making our trips so memorable,  And the memories we create so fresh, Every bit saved in our hearts.  As we keep walking and talking  And time going by so fast, Yet, it fe

Under the Tree (By Saara Kanana)  Late afternoon on a calm day, Just before dusk had fallen, As the sky grew dark in a distance, Right before nightfall emerged. She sat by the trunk of a Baobab tree, Letting the dry leaves fall on her thick afro, Feeling the gentle breeze on her shoulders As the wind whistled around her. Murmuring to a sweet melody, A familiar sound she could hear from a distance, A high tempo of a Sparrow, A tone that was hard to ignore, A rhythm she grew fond of. She closed her eyes, inhaling it all in, Letting it all sink in her mind and heart, It was in that moment, She felt something different, A sense of peace.

Strength I have heard people define strength, I searched for the definition of strength, I could never find a right one, I was never satisfied with what I found. It was when I sat home, And realized that I have always known strength, I was always surrounded by it, I spent my whole life with it. It was always in front of me, And I never realized, I couldn’t read nor see the signs, Therefore, I always looked past it. The one that birthed me, The one that raised me, Who still carries me except, not a womb. That for me is strength. My strength comes with unending love, It comes with daily motivation, It provides me with constant courage, In my strength, I find my lifetime best friend. Nothing is worth repayment, No words are worth enough appreciation, I can only be thankful and grateful, And I am, I love you mom.